taking up responsbility...

2 months back , i asked mom to stop watering the plants..I wanted to take up the responsibility to water my plants each day in the morning i wake up.In starting it was really difficult..I sometime completely forgot to give them water resulting in drying up of some plants..i even felt very lazy about and and not being liking the responsibility ..was some way or other tried to escape it...and in the mean while one more plant dried up....but that incident made me realise my mistake..
I have providing them water continuously for one month now..and it feels good.
today few white flowers bloomed on one of the plants after i have been watering them.
when we take up responsibilities..no matter we feel good or bad about it..we should be committed to them and perform them...it definitely brings up a change...
sometimes in form of a sweet flower looking great in the morning on your roof..:)

choicelessness of mind is freedom,conflict in mind makes it hell..

i often sit and think,why is it like,i get disturbed,and feel like doing nothing.
often I get struck in things that confuses me and stops me.I get lost in past memories or future worries.what is it that often bothers me...
its the conflict going in my mind via intellect..
when the mind have choices...conflicts and confusions arises..and then arises the bad feeling...
whatever you may call it...worry ,distrust,regret,botheration,...you feel bad...
when the mind doesnt have any other choice...
you feel good...
this choicelessness of mind leaves you at a very simple junction...
"feel good and move on with passion" or
"feel bad and sit in a corner and weep"
[ALL THAT HAD BEEN/HAS BEEN...ALL THAT IS RIGHT NOW ....ALL THAT WILL BE...}
choice is yours and the wise will definitely want to feel good and be choiceless....
its 5th june today...
i completed all my work..preparation for a forthcoming exam is also done...
had good food ,exercise and healthy interactions with family and friends...
right now while writing this blog..I m missing my S.M.I.L.E..
I pray everyday that god bless everybody with lots of smiles...
I m devoted to S.M.I.L.E ....
RIGHT NOW A BIT OFF MOOD AND MISSING SOME PAST MOMENTS AND FUTURE EXPECTATIONS I FIND MYSELF IN MIDST OF CONFUSION..
WHAT TO DO...
WELL I LIKE TO BE CHOICE LESS AND GIVE MY 100% IN PRESENT AND BE HAPPY...
FEEL GOOD IS THE SECRET...
WITH YOU IN EVERYTHING..WITH YOU IN ME...
LEARNING HOW TO WALK AND MOVE ON...
CB2A