worked hard..but still hungry....

AS usual quiet many works to be completed...and lots of other stuff to do...this time even could'nt watch much of awaited movies like "Tum mile","2012","paa".....hope I am not going to miss "3 idiots" lol.....
this happened when on a usual day of mine i was returning home after work...in mind was going the story of "Avatar" and some of the worries regarding life...mean while I was looking for a conveyance to go back home..with little effort got a Rickshaw..but had to share it with a man who worked as labour in near by construction sites...I was on first instance not going to sit in that rickshaw...but i was saving 10 bugs so i hired and shared it with him...he was tired and was hungry too i guess...I was playing games on my cell when i heard him calling me with the name Bauji....and this is how i suddenly fell in a conversation with him...he with his low voice just started telling all what he did in that day...helping other labours in pulling carts to earn a living...working at a construction site..and also small work to clean 2 rooms of a house on wage basis...
Rs.10 for helping in pulling carts that provided him with a morning meal...Rs.50 for cleaning those two rooms that provided him with lunch...
and then no money for working at the construction site just because that Thekedar{builder} refused to pay him the money and said take your money tommorrow..{kal le jana...2 din bad aana}..I was listening to him that time ....I replied why didnt you oppose...why did'nt 2-3 of you gathered and asked for your pay..he said..bauji noone says anything when they are paid and one of them remains unpaid...
on the point when i said you must complain against him ....his answer was something that really shook me and made me feel bad..."jiske pass paisa hai police and law&order usi ka hai"[one who has money has the power too]
well i was quiet...he was hungry he said...and could not afford a dinner that day..his eyes were red....I found myself unable to help him out..i could easily provide him with a dinner that night...but I didnt...and I myself am unable to figure out the reason..
he being hungry was not his mistake or his luck or the conditions...the problem lies somewhere with the people like us..
i came back home quietly......and from next time...will see that someone like him working at my home or my place doesnt sleep without dinner....

SURRENDERED & SMILING:):)

IT's long i didnt post anything...well it can be called as a continuation of what i wrote under the heading...c"choicelessness of mind is freedom,conflict in mind makes it hell"...
but this time it's a bit more personal about my life...i had some of the best moments of my life,extremely happy and joyful experiences,pleasant smiles and wonderful time in the last 6 months...that got paused on not so good note..
I have no choice....my mind is choiceless and i am happily devoted to the love to the greatest friend of my life...I never want that this feeling of mine gets effected in any way...and i will do anything to preserve this feeling in my heart forever.
I keeps on living and dying and then living again and dying again in the very feeling of love with her.It has become a vicious cycle that keeps on continuing.what to do now?
I dont know anything so now I have surrendered everything to this vicious cycle in which I died once again.I will keep my devotion preserve in heart.I have no worries.I know she will take care of herself.she will be happy and she willl be fine.
this time i will wait for this cycle to end forever.....
This time i will wait that my devotion is accompanied by her in form of her very soul...
this time when i say i am devoted to you and hear it back it will last till our last breath...
I have raised myself above this cycle..
and till then i m devoted surrendered and happy....
because its the choicelessness of my mind heart body and soul...
I will not let this feeling of mine effected anyway...
and for this if i have to be with my devotion alone.....i will.....
because its something i adore forever...:):)

searching for myself: "TAMANNA CREATIONS"- A PLACE OF PERFECTION

searching for myself: "TAMANNA CREATIONS"- A PLACE OF PERFECTION

I AM GOING TO EARN THIS ONEDAY.....

There is nothing philosophical today...also not any experience as such..
today its something i really want to have for myself one day...and i am working hard for it..
its nothing but a VW BEETLE...
If someone asks me,what material thing you would really like to have that you will adore embrace admire and love...?
my answer will be this small car...
I am in love with it...
and its also one of my dreams to have one...
I m in love with it...

"TAMANNA CREATIONS"- A PLACE OF PERFECTION

"TAMANNA CREATIONS"
IT IS A DREAM WHICH IS BEING PUT IN REALITY NOW...
Tamanna Creations is a very start to the dream..dream of giving Indian handicrafts a place and a brand image everywhere...whether its gifts decors designs cards momentos paintings show pieces...
Tamanna creations don't sell things for just money only..
its something really special we get..its your smiles which are invaluable to us..
We are here for giving you a sweet token of Indian tradition...the very first step towards it..

the very first articles made by the firm...also open for placing orders....







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[happy friendship day..d to u...cb2a,UR SMILES ARE MY COMMAND.]

taking up responsbility...

2 months back , i asked mom to stop watering the plants..I wanted to take up the responsibility to water my plants each day in the morning i wake up.In starting it was really difficult..I sometime completely forgot to give them water resulting in drying up of some plants..i even felt very lazy about and and not being liking the responsibility ..was some way or other tried to escape it...and in the mean while one more plant dried up....but that incident made me realise my mistake..
I have providing them water continuously for one month now..and it feels good.
today few white flowers bloomed on one of the plants after i have been watering them.
when we take up responsibilities..no matter we feel good or bad about it..we should be committed to them and perform them...it definitely brings up a change...
sometimes in form of a sweet flower looking great in the morning on your roof..:)

choicelessness of mind is freedom,conflict in mind makes it hell..

i often sit and think,why is it like,i get disturbed,and feel like doing nothing.
often I get struck in things that confuses me and stops me.I get lost in past memories or future worries.what is it that often bothers me...
its the conflict going in my mind via intellect..
when the mind have choices...conflicts and confusions arises..and then arises the bad feeling...
whatever you may call it...worry ,distrust,regret,botheration,...you feel bad...
when the mind doesnt have any other choice...
you feel good...
this choicelessness of mind leaves you at a very simple junction...
"feel good and move on with passion" or
"feel bad and sit in a corner and weep"
[ALL THAT HAD BEEN/HAS BEEN...ALL THAT IS RIGHT NOW ....ALL THAT WILL BE...}
choice is yours and the wise will definitely want to feel good and be choiceless....
its 5th june today...
i completed all my work..preparation for a forthcoming exam is also done...
had good food ,exercise and healthy interactions with family and friends...
right now while writing this blog..I m missing my S.M.I.L.E..
I pray everyday that god bless everybody with lots of smiles...
I m devoted to S.M.I.L.E ....
RIGHT NOW A BIT OFF MOOD AND MISSING SOME PAST MOMENTS AND FUTURE EXPECTATIONS I FIND MYSELF IN MIDST OF CONFUSION..
WHAT TO DO...
WELL I LIKE TO BE CHOICE LESS AND GIVE MY 100% IN PRESENT AND BE HAPPY...
FEEL GOOD IS THE SECRET...
WITH YOU IN EVERYTHING..WITH YOU IN ME...
LEARNING HOW TO WALK AND MOVE ON...
CB2A